6/7/25
hubris and the desire for money have driven me crazy and i have decided to start doing neocities website commissions on fiverr. that doesnt even seem to be a Thing people do, so i hope im not breaking some written rule somewhere...... if i am hopefully someone will kindly tell me and ill just take that shit down and think about my actions. but idk! i just think this whole web design dev stuff is cool and id like to do more of it!! i wanna do skillshare classes! domestika classes! all sortsa classes! i wanna learn to do fancy shit with javascript! im so excited but i also want to get as much done as i possibly can while im feeling this excitement as i know it could go away just as fast as it showed up.
still havent finished my first artfight piece.... to busy being websitepilled. shout out to the two people who attacked me on artfight already, yous absolutely made my week. i love my dumbass ocs and seeing them brought to life by other peoples fantastic art is just. chefs kiss good shit.
4/7/25
in all my excitement of updating the site i accidentally gutted the thoughts page.... rip to my thoughts poor bastards never stood a chance. anyway uh guess from now on im gonna try back up all my thoughts/blog entries to my laptop Justin Case lmao..... ah well. all i ever wrote about was, like, school stuff and me getting my ereader. but seriously i do want to do this whole blogging stuff more frequently, if only for my own sake of keeping track of my life and memories (because seriously, my memory is dogshit sometimes!)
sooooo what have i been up to lately? well, mostly working on this website, thats for one thing. but i also finished an original song! my first original song on my youtube since like.... 2019? 2018? a long time ago, anyway. its not that i havent been making songs - ok thats a lie i havent been making songs for quite a while. but even when i did make songs it was the whole bloody video editing aspect of it that prevented me from uploading anything. because, no offense to soundcloud or anything, but... i never vibed with it much. i like youtube! youtubes fun. except for when its a hellscape, me and my mam watched that netflix doc about child influencers the other day.... but thats a whole other Thing
fastlove by george michael is on the radio which reminds me of that fuckin jeb jab fic i never finished lmao. the thing with scott the woz fanfiction is its so inherently stupid that i have to be in a Specific Headspace or else i just explode with cringe at myself and cant write anything....... hence why media dimension remains very much unfinished. ill get to you one day king, i promise